Chapter 9

She knew this has to end. Last night had changed her; it was nothing like what the books had described. She knew she didn’t feel what he had felt; she was starting to realize she was not curious anymore; she had been attracted to the idea of him and not him; she had felt a rush when she knew he was going to kiss; not when he had actually kissed her; she couldn’t even remember how she had felt; she had felt nothing, zero what so ever. She did not know how he felt, but knew she had to end this before it gets any further. She had spent the night tossing and turning thinking of a way to end this. She was not attracted to him anymore, she did not want to see or talk to him the next morning, but knew she had to and finding a way to end this had given her a headache and she had taken an aspirin and had fallen asleep.

She felt something on her lips and opened her eyes slowly and was surprised to see him sitting next to her. She remembered locking her door before going to bed and was not sure how he had opened it. He wanted to know how she was doing and guessed he must have kissed her on her lips. She was a bit annoyed that he had come into her room without her permission; she was not sure if she would have felt the same way yesterday. She told him she had a headache and would like to sleep for a while and he kissed her once more and left the room. She was clearer than ever that she need to end this now but had no idea how she was going to end it.

She lay there for a while thinking and had taken a shower and had thought about how sweet he had been to her and helped her when she had got hurt and she decided to put aside her initial thoughts. She had initially decided to tell him that she had felt nothing when he had kissed her, but not anymore. The more she thought about it she realized it was a bad idea and it would probably hurt him. She had thought long and hard and had come up with an idea to let him down easily. She will use the fact that Chari had seen her more as a daughter than as a guest in his house. He had done everything he would do for his daughter and if this continues it would break his heart. She had gone through many scenarios and that turned out to be the best and she knew he would agree to it too, he had to.