He looked into her eyes, his eyes filled with passion and she remembered the way he used to look at her when they were together. She could see that somewhere inside his heart he still loved her. She knew he was neither drunk nor out of his senses, this was absolutely because he wanted to. She felt her love for him when he kissed her, she absolutely didn't want that to end at all; she had been secretly longing to know how he feels about her and now she knew, definitely knew that there is a place for her in his heart, there always will be no matter what. She grabbed his lips and wouldn't let go, she could feel her heart beat in her lips; she was pleased about the way he still felt about her in spite of all the things that happened, the feeling that their love was eternal gave her the satisfaction of lived with him all these years. He grabbed her tight and close and she reciprocated in unison. He was gentle as usual and nothing has changed over the years; he was delicate yet persistent and lovable. He gently ran his fingers around her neck and slowly started to undo her blouse. Under any other circumstance she wouldn't have objected but not today, not now. She loved him too much to cause him more pain. She knew she can't let this happen; if he finds out what she had been going through it would hurt him more and she couldn't let that happen but she wanted to kiss him and she knew he wanted more, she could sense him. She didn't know what to do, but she knew she had to and she remembered something, and she realized he cared for her deeply but they were not a couple, especially when she remembered the way he was when he picked up the phone. She knew something happened between him and Diya, she knew his body language too well to ignore that and she decided to use that as an excuse. Even though she regretted it, she gently pushed his hand away from her and let go of his lips and said "I don't want you to do anything that you would regret later".
He ignored her and continued to kiss her on her neck and she gently moved him and said, "I am sorry, but I have to turn you down. I don't want you to regret this later, especially today being a birthday; I don't want you to have any regrets tomorrow." She got up and walked over to get a glass of water. He turned to her in surprise and said, "Why do you think I am going to regret this?" He paused for a minute and got up straightening his shirt and said, "You mean to say that you would regret this. I get it" in a tone that clearly indicated that he was not happy. She turned around, looked at him and said, "I saw the way you looked at her at that day, and the phone call earlier today, I know how you feel about her. As for me, I would be delighted even if it is a one night's stand, I care about you too much to turn you down, but right now I can definitely say that you will regret this tomorrow and it open doors for more pain." He looked at her straight in the eye and said, "Don't turn this around on me. You don't care about me as much as you claim to. If you really had you wouldn't keep all sorts of secrets from me, I would be the first person you would share it with." He walked over and sat down to wear his shoes and his tone changed even more for the worse. She looked at him not knowing what he was talking about. "To begin with you don't love me, sometimes I even doubt if you ever did. But I still care about you and for that I am absolutely stupid" he said. Her face stiffened and she couldn't even blink. His words pierced through her heart like the molten larva of a volcano creeping through the luscious vegetation destroying everything in its path and turning them into ashes. He continued, "I can't help notice a lot of things, you threw me out of your life in a heart beat for your career - to top it all I have always supported your ambitions. You come back into my life after all these years, with secrets. To begin with the way you dress, your hair, your skin and your visits to
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