Chapter 335

Diya didn’t know he answer to that. She loved him and wanted him to be in her life. But she was not sure if she wanted it to be anything more than what it was right now or if she was just scared. She knew it was time for her to sort things out with him and clear the air at the same time she didn’t know how else she should feel about someone to take the next step. And now Akshar was in her life. She liked him very much. She didn’t know if she loved him because she has not known him enough, at least not as long as she had known Pryag. She was going back and forth in her mind thinking about Akshar and Pryag. She realized that they both had a place in her heart but she couldn’t say who was better than the other. She couldn’t pick one over the other and she didn’t want to. She liked the way things were going. Pryag was wonderful and delightful to be with. He was in tune with her in every possible way. If she was to fall back he was standing right there to catch her and help her back on her feet. And his family was practically already hers and was so supportive of her and she has known them all her life. But on the other hand when Akshar was around she felt like she was in a fairy tale. A handsome prince on a white horse came upon and picked up the damsel in distress and rode away. But the difference she was not in any kind of distress or anything but it just felt like it. He was enchanting and mysterious. He aroused her curiosity and opened eyes to new things which she wouldn’t have explored otherwise. She was very confused. It felt like she needed both to enrich her life. Marriage, that was the last thing in her mind right now but at the same time she knew she was getting older and she had always wanted kids, two to be precise and her biological clock was ticking.

She didn’t mean to but she did hurt Pryag and he did say so that she made a fool out of him. That did hurt her because that was the last thing that she would ever want to do to him. At this point in time she was just happy to have both of them in her life. And today with the question from Pryag she was forced to think about so many things. She looked at Pryag. He seemed very calm and relaxed as if he already knew what she was going to say. There was no mystery whit him. He was very transparent. He was like a genuine gem. It was just that she was not sure if he was her gemstone. But now she had scratched this gem and was afraid that she would loose it forever. She thought about everything from the time he got sick. The first time he told her that he was in loved with her and that he was not going to live long. He had confided in her first and opened up to her. She remembered how devastating it was the though that she could actually loose him forever. And her encounter with Akshar when she was stressed over Pryag and his soothing words from him. She remembered how she almost thought that she was pregnant with Pryag’s baby that until today she was not sure if anything actually happened between them or not. There was not recollection of such an incident nether for her nor for him but it still an unsolved mystery. Then she though about the time in the hospital that just before surgery and the words exchanged between them. Then the surprise that was in store for her in the form of a proposal with a ring. She had been just curious and had tried the ring on. And then she never really said yes to him. And the discussion with her parents when he said that he was going to move in with her. When all was said the last words that were exchanged between the two of them, before he called off the whole thing. She looked at the glass of water in front of her. She had requested a slice of lime along with it and she took a fork and started poking the lime that was floating in the water. The lime slowly started to give out the juice that mixed with the water in the glass and the whole incident unfolded in her mind.