Chapter 340

His eyes were slowly turning red. The veins on his hands looked as if they were going to burst out through his skin. There was hurt, betrayal, anger, rage and pain in his eyes. She could see everything. It was like he had a magnifying x-ray glass that could penetrate her heart and could even pierce it. She was scared and was getting goose bumps on her hands. His lips were starting to quiver. His pale face was turning much paler giving her the creeps. She couldn’t take it anymore and she gently touched his hand and asked, “Are you … okay?” There was fear in her voice. He pushed her out in a rage and she almost lost her balance and fell on the floor. His voice was furious, “I don’t believe this. I have been a fool all this long. You wanted to marry because you thought I was going to die. You said yes, not because you love me but because you pity me. Do you even know how it feels? You could have said No or maybe I need some time to think about it. But instead of just being honest….” He waked back and forth is a fast pace with his hands running back and forth over his head. She was shocked but equally furious as he almost pushed her down and now the he was accusing her. She yelled back, “You know what, technically I never said yes. You assumed I did. So it is not all my fault.” He looked at her, “Yes. It is my fault to think that you love me. That you trust me enough to tell me how you feel. You know what you have made a fool of me. Not just me, my mom and dad too who are really planning for our wedding. I have been so stupid no to even realize that you were not interested in a big engagement party. I thought you did not want to overwhelm me.”

He paused for a minute to take a deep breath and continued. This time his closed his eyes and for that moment he looked like he was meditating. He was not screaming anymore, but he was disappointed and sad. It was both evident in his face and is tone of voice. She looked at him without saying anything as she realized what she had done. She said those things as she was angry. But now she realized that it had come out the wrong way and did not mean either of those things. Even though they were true she loved him but was just not ready to get married as she was not sure about what she really wanted. He came back and sat on the couch with his elbows resting on his knee and his hands covering his face. In a low voice she said, “It didn’t come out right. I didn’t mean to hurt you. I really do love you Pryag.” He shook his head and looked up and said, “You have not only made a fool out of me but you have hurt me very deeply. The last thing any man wants to find out the woman he loves agrees to marry him out of pity. That is a scar that s much deeper than a scar received in the battlefield. This not only hurts my heart this also hurts my ego. This tells how much you really respect me. To me this is worse than infidelity. I am so hurt I am walking out of this room right now and I am also furious. I really don’t want to talk to you or see you again. He got up, picked up all his belongings and walked out banging the door behind him. She sat there starring at the door with a shock in her face. Everything has happened too fast. She felt so bad for hurting him. She knew this is going to take a long time but didn’t know how long. She wanted to say sorry and explain how things had happened. She really wanted to say that not in a million years that she would ever want to hurt him. But unintentionally she already had. She sat with all the thoughts going through her mind and slowly the tear drops from her eyes started falling off and they didn’t stop until they completely moistened her cheeks.